How I am....not how I was

I Remember, acrylic, 14/18 framed 

$150.00

Sometimes, I am not whom I seem to be in the world. 

Sometimes when I look in the mirror I see only flaws.

I don't mean to be so critical of myself, it just happens.

This summer has been one of emotions.

Good and Bad and some that are new to me.

There are times when I'm trying to explain myself to someone and 

They stop me and say "That's not true". 

So who do I think I am? 

I find that I am someone who can be alone. In fact, if I was not alone I would not be painting and creating as much as I do.

But, that is not so ......I do not like to be alone all that much.

 I have this painting hand in my house.

Some say, "But you haven't finished it." 

I say, Haven't I? 

It is a reminder to me that there is always more to be done.

I have always told my husband he married a city girl.

But, is that true anymore?

I live far from the city and traffic of  freeways and crowds.

CHANGE.....Always. change.

When I was younger, I danced. I danced everyday and took dance classes.

MODERN DANCE. 

Do you remember when that was offered in college? 

I took every dance class they offered.

Oh, how I loved to dance.

Now that I'm older I don't dance much anymore.

Only at weddings and yoga retreats. 

CHANGE..Always change.

I use to Model.

I loved fashion, clothes and hair and style.

NO, that hasn't changed. I still love clothes and fashion.

But, my style has changed. You can't wear hot pants forever.

There is a grace with growing older.

In 5 months I will be 60 years old.

I look forward to that chapter of me life.

Will I be slowing down? 

HECK NO!!!

There is a Full Blue Moon on January 31.

There will not be another until 2018.

I am preparing my home, my body and my spirit for a wonderful cleansing.

I'm new to this, so I bought a few books to help me. 

I will also do the fire ceremony that I usually do for full moons. 

It's strange don't you think, I mean how we see ourselves. How the world See's us. 

Sometimes I think people see me how I was and not how I am.

What about you? 

Will you be open to the new you this blue moon?

Be Inspired,

~jean 

The Month of June

June's Aspects

Taken from "The Grandmother of Time, Zsuzsanna E. Budapest

This month of June received its name from the Goddess Juno, protector of women and marriage. This is where the custom of June brides originates. This month has many flower festivals, rose parades, weddings, and dances. Midsummer Night is a major international holiday for lovers, for divining the future, for building bonfires, and for jumping them for good luck.

Full moon aspect: Mead moon, strong sun moon

Universal event: The sun is moving away from the earth, but the constant moon prevails. The summer is peaking out, all ripens and gets ready for the harvest.

Communal event: Midsummer Night and Day. This is usually a three day festival featuring dancing in the woods, with religious ecstasy. This is a time to gather all the tribes together, travel home to the old homestead, visit family and kin. All restrictions of chastity were lifted at the time, marriage proposals and weddings are lucky now.

Message: to bond, to lead, to rule

Activity: Endurance and triumphant fulfillment

Emotional mode: Bonding, loyalty

Healing properties: To make Strong, to cleanse, prevention and protection

Color: Purple, indigo

Tree: Oak and mistletoe, symbols of the male principle. This is the time for ritually cutting mistletoe and catch it in a white cloth so that it never touches the ground

Flower: Rose

Creature: Wren

Gem: Pearl, moonstone, alexandrite

With summer for me comes getting outside more. This year is the year of hiking for me and my family. I love that the days are longer and that means that we can sit outside after work and enjoy an easy barbecue. 

I woke up to the sounds of this hot air balloon over our heads with our morning coffee. 

While I was watching this fly up and was reminded of how much fun Kerry and I had when we took our first hot air balloon ride. 

So now the question for the month is:

Do you make the journey or does the journey make you? 

Be Inspired,

~jean